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Loneliness – The Dilemma of the Awakening Mind

consciousenss cosmic spiritJulian Wash, Contributor
Waking Times

Today I wish to address to you a certain brand of loneliness. It is perhaps the most debilitating form of the condition. The state is sometimes referred to as “isolation” or the sense of being disconnected, apart, abandoned or simply “different” from everyone else you know. This situation is compounded when friends, coworkers and even family members begin seeing you differently. They’re not so much intrigued by your positive changes but rather disappointed by your shift in attitude and may even be concerned for your mental stability. These otherwise well-meaning souls are occasionally characterized as the “sleeping” and you may very well be part of the “awakening.”

The Awakening Mind

I say “awakening” because the experience appears to be very dynamic and fluid by nature. I’m not sure I would recognize or even fully appreciated an “awake” mind for they are far and few between us. But for those who are experiencing various stages of wakening, you are as visible to me as I am to you.

Generally speaking, the awakening mind radiates at a much different and “higher” vibration than most other people. Since this “vibration” wants to resonate harmonically with similar or complimentary energies, it can (and often does) resonate with like-minded people. It can, however, just as easily create discord with those who resonate at a much lower vibration.  Just imagine striking a non-complimentary note on separate pianos, especially with one out of tune. That’s the discord I’m referring to, except in this case, the resonance resides within the psychic and spiritual realms.

I speak in terms of “higher” and “lower” vibrations without truly qualifying what is meant by that. First off, there is no state superior to another. Like changing stations on a radio dial YOU choose the station you need (or want) to be on. Most people are tuned to what I consider to be a limited awareness. This does not make them any less sublime or capable as Humans. This is merely the channel they are “tuned” to and as such they are acclimated with that world.

This vibrational density is impressive in its own right for it has the power to generate fantastic illusions so convincing that even the conscious mind can fully buy into it. This ability to manifest a false paradigm and to believe it to be true requires considerable power. But you, my dear reader, may have peeked behind the proverbial projector screen and have seen an assembly of gears and levers and perhaps even a portly, unassuming little man attending them with due diligence.

Stepping Out of the Matrix

The awakening mind —now that’s a different story. The higher vibration of this mind-body state allows a more commanding view. Like stepping up a ladder, you can look down and see (though not really live) the dynamics of the lower vibrations. Each step up the ladder requires tremendous courage, an open and curious mind and a high degree of “functional” intelligence. Those steps command effort -much more effort than what most are willing to exert. Sleepers may go so far as to observe or even stumble over this hypothetical “ladder” and still not recognize what it is or how they may benefit from it.

People on the lower rungs of the ladder rarely look up. They choose to frequently look “down” which may give them a false sense of superiority or dominion over their world. They are especially prone to the hypnotic suggestion television creates and may even go so far as to “act out” various fictional characters or their favorite professional athlete. The lower state is easily entertained- and anything or anyone who challenges their status quo will be dismissed as an outsider, a misfit or a threat.

The Slide and Adrenalin 

I have alluded to a ladder- but now I would like for you to imagine a slide. Going “up” the slide takes some effort. You must go up the steps, higher and higher until you reach the top. One may then position themselves in such a manner so to enjoy the ride downward. This downward “thrill” is brief but exhilarating. The slide provides a good physical example of going from a higher state to a lower state and the ensuing thrill from moving in this downward fashion.

There are also many examples of the slide analogy within the spiritual realm. Turn on any news station and you will soon be bombarded with “energy dropping” stories that create a sort of “rush” –a rush that, curiously enough, is habit forming. These news sources often report stories of tragedy and high drama. So severe are these stories they actually can cause the body to produce an adrenalin related “rush” or high. Once again we find ourselves “sliding” down that imaginary slide and into a lower vibrational state.  The “mainstream” news networks have created legions of adrenalin junkies. The “sleepers” are their primary target.

During the course of their day, the sleepers gradually build their energy level back up. But soon they find themselves back on that hypothetical slide and are sent swooshing down once again into a lower energy state. It’s a vicious, repeating cycle that keeps the sleepers fast asleep and drunk happy on adrenalin.

Lonely at the Top

Many readers of Rattleberry Pie have stayed on top of the ladder long enough to take in the view. They’ve recognized that the view is more exhilarating than the fall. They saw many things up there- things that would be hard to describe to those below. The awakening mind continues to build “steps” higher and higher, and soon they are peeking above the clouds. Now they look down from this lofty position and see the tiny dot that was their slide. They are amazed by how that relatively insignificant slide inspired them to move higher. Sliding down from this cloud level height is really no longer an option, at least not in the traditional sense.

Here is yet another dilemma of the awakening mind. Once you have experienced the process of awakening there really is no going back. The one (down) side is the higher you get, the more rarefied the air becomes. Loneliness can settle in. The awakening mind is an exceptionally vibrant mind that requires considerable stimulation and camaraderie. But it’s lonely up there. Indeed.

Final Thought

The awakening experience is truly a gift. It’s is not for the weak or the meek. It takes much strength and courage to achieve these higher levels of enlightenment. Those who are awakening come in all sizes and shapes –many are the so-called Indigo’s, the Crystal’s, or essentially any Human that realizes their personal power and potential and that there is much more to this world than they’ve been told.

One may ponder if those in the process of awakening have a moral obligation to try and wake the sleepers. From my own observation and experience I would advise against this. Simply let them sleep. The best way to reach them is over time. Be gentle and incremental in your approach. This is the same technique the “powers that be” have used on you  -that was until you saw a little “string” that connected to other strings that held the tapestry of the matrix in place.

So be an example. Radiate with love and truth. Project health, exuberance and happiness. Be aware without being angry (easier said than done). The sleepers must see the higher steps of the ladder as being worth the effort. They may someday abandon the rush of the fall for the beauty of the view.

Just by virtue of being aware you are already contributing in a vast and energetic way to those around you. They “sense” your vibration and may try to resonate with you some day. You have been given “eyes to see” and “ears to hear” so you have been blessed. Yes, until others begin to see as you do the loneliness -the isolation can feel very real at times. Let me remind you that you are not alone. We feel you out there- we are grateful for your presence and we love you so very, very much.

Until next time.

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  • Denise

    I am one of the fortunate few whose awakening began 50 years ago at the tender age of 12~It has been a very difficult and challenging journey as most of the people in my life do not live where I live. I have learned to meet them where they are while I continue down the road of enlightenment. Today, I know of only one other person in my life (my brother) who is on the same spiritual journey but the difference between us is I have learned to Be still and know that He is God while my bro continues to get angry by those who refuse to awaken. I’ve have gone through many periods of mourning the lose of all I thought was true but when the grieving is done, I find myself more at peace than before the grief because the last stage of grief is acceptance…acceptance of all we cannot change and the only thing I can change is myself!!! I love the people in my life, even though we do not resonate as one, because they bring fun and joy of their own and if ever the day comes when they find themselves in a moment of clarity and awakening, well then I will be that go to person in their lives. Until then, live and let live and I do not judge for each and every journey is a solitary and personal one!

  • rum bum

    and i love you 2

  • Some1

    This morning I woke up, with such a lonely feeling. I have these feelings my whole life, while I had a lot of friends and family, but I felt always alone in the crowd. I became depressive and find life meaningless.
    So this morning again and was searching in myself for answer…why? I can’t remember there is a reason to feel this way. and then,… the first thing I saw on internet was this article….Do I need more to explain?…
    My story is like every one else, I don’t need to tell , I believe the awakening know what I mean and does it sound strange, that I’m sure I had telepathic contact with some of you here? especially with the autor of this article…..I want to thank you for letting me know!

  • Awaken fully, wholeheartedly, and fearlesslsy and though you may be alone, you will never be lonely, for you will be filled with the Love of God, the Source of all Love.

  • psychoticvoid

    Hi all.Male,34 still virgin to prove my loneliness,also to make things more complicated I’ve been an orphan since i was 15 and a political Refugee from Iran based in Wales,UK since 1999.
    I’ve travelled most of my life and been awake since i can remember.Seen so many people and places. in past year I began to reach out to people or I should say a girl friend but No Luck.
    Just spent the Xmas alone with a cup green tea in my small place.not begging for your sympathy here as i am a man of many talents.Simply need someone Awake.So if you are in Wales,Uk or anywhere in the world and feel the same and obviously a female drop me a line ax13666 at googlemail dot com

  • Adam Evenson

    Yes, being Awake is a lonely trek. I Awoke in 1968 in a humongous flash that has not diminished. After I got over the suggestions that I was losing my mind (I did lose my “mind,” actually, as I didn’t really have one previously–then at age 28-1/2, but now at age 74, do have one and can prove it. 😉 The whole world was fast asleep when I Awoke in 1968 even though the Flower Child Generation was already pretty much in full swing. I have not considered that the world has begun stirring from its ages-long slumber until about 9-11-2001. And that was because Evil finally decided to bash the world alongside the head with a sledge hammer that had all the assailants’ names emblazoned on the handle. I don’t mean to accuse any “Arab airplane hijackers,” either. I don’t need to accuse anybody in that affair, as I would have to stand in a miles’-long line of other highly intelligent and righteous accusers whose numbers grow exponentially by the hour. Eventually the Megalith of Lies about that sledge hammer blow (of 9-11) will topple and I will not have lifted a finger to accomplish it.

    When I Awoke, I experienced a Consciousness that I’d never read of in any book or heard of in any tale, either then or to this day nearly fifty years later. I’ve been isolated (alone) all that time, as this is what Wakefulness does to the recipient. One has to acclimate to The Solitude, which I cherish and would have no other way, either when I attained it or today. I Love it. I am alone in the largest crowds and intimately know what this means. Occasionally, I tweak somebody closest to me, the individual jiggles and wiggles a tiny bit, opens eyes for a moment, sometimes in terror and other times in genuine curiosity, and then falls back asleep.

    I do deeply appreciate reading folks such as those on this blog; however, I have not met another like unto me since I Awoke in 1968. But I am not supposed to, am I?–as every Awakened Soul is unique in kind in that We Are One, thus, there are no great numbers of Us.

    • Meter

      Hello Adam. 🙂 Metaphorically speaking… This world is a dream, and we exist as projections within it. Each soul is a sun, and just as there are great distances between the stars in the heavens, so are there distances between souls. When a projection becomes aware of its sun, its soul, it is said to be awakened, and the light of its soul shines through it into this world. This projection experiences itself as awake (or lucid) within this dream world, as do you.

      We as lucid projections may be in the presence of other lucid projections, of our own soul or others. We may or may not know we are, depending on where our attention is focused. It is as yet rare. I have never experienced it. I have been in the presence of my teachers (or more accurately their projections around my sun), but they are not human. Their presence is powerful, to put it mildly – I can barely withstand it.

      This is why you are alone in a crowd. You merely send a projection into the crowd, creating it at will, but you do not send your full projection (which would affect the crowd greatly, and they might kill you). We do create projections which we send to orbit other suns, other souls. When we do so, in this world we experience this as meeting another person or group, perhaps having a lasting relationship. Yet it always feels like only one facet of us is present, not our total self (no one knows me fully, not even close, not even I).

      Often when unawakened people meet your projection in this world, they will be drawn to your light, your presence, but they will not be able to get too close, so you know much solitude. They may weep in your presence, unloading their life story, which you have probably experienced. They may then send a projection to orbit your sun, which helps ignite their awareness of their own (you have become their guru). Also orbiting your sun are other egoic fragments of your ‘self’, which may or may not be lucid. This is how people experience awakening in stages – their identification (personality) moves sometimes to unawakened fragments in orbit around their sun, and often moves back to other fragments which are awakened.

      I did not experience a sudden awakening like yourself, so I am somewhat unclear on how that looks – perhaps you are unaware of other fragments, they would be like other personalities separated from you now, living their own realities. I am a consciousness that shifts among many fragments orbiting my soul – some are awake, some are still not, though my personality carries lucidity with it, so even in an unawakened fragment, a part of me is awake as a presence – I am my own guru, awakening myselves. As such, I am losing my mind gradually. 🙂

      Just as the outer universe is expanding, so is the inner. Eventually it will reach maximum, and will begin to collapse unto itself – a reverse big bang. As this occurs, souls will merge and become one again, though I cannot fathom what this experience will be.

      To read of a sudden awakening much like your own, read The Power Of Now by Eckhart Tolle. You will also find much reflection in his book A New Earth (people who are not awakened or awakening will not be able to comprehend that book, which he explicitly warns about in the introduction – those still awakening will find it egoically difficult to read but worth the effort).

      It is remarkable the souls (projections) sharing this thread, all somewhat lonely.

      • Deborah

        Hi Meter – I have REALLY enjoyed reading all your posts on this feed! Finally, a like-minded person who is able to express this phenomena so eloquently. I am at peace with my sometimes loneliness, but wouldn’t mind having a friend or pen pal with which to communicate. I feel I resonate with you completely and was wondering if you’d like to be pen pals?

        • Thanks for your feedback Deborah – I’m glad my words shared some illumination. One thing about awakening gradually is that you get to know the process in detail. I don’t email much personally, but you’re welcome to use the Contact form on my old blog linked in my name above to reach me (you may also enjoy the one article there). I only check that account occasionally, and I may or may not reply. 🙂 Either way thanks for reaching out and sharing your thoughts.

          The more effective way to meet me is in meditation, which may be what you are already feeling. To a greater or lesser degree, I communicate psychically with everyone who reads my words, guiding and answering questions, sharing energy, etc. You won’t exactly reach ‘me’ this way, but you’ll be directed to and join a body of energy which exists in a matrix halfway between me and you, joining others. We’re having a nice party. 🙂 Imagine yourself orbiting this body of energy, and perhaps being accelerated to different orbits by its energy and your own.

          I offer this excerpt from Conversations With God Book 2 which describes it better so you can visualize it:

          “All the world is exchanging energy all the time.

          Your energy is pushing out, touching everything else. Everything and everyone else is touching you. But now an interesting thing happens. At some point midway between you and everything else – those energies meet.

          To make a more vivid description, let’s imagine two people in a room. They are on the far sides of the room from each other. We’ll call them Tom and Mary.

          Now Tom’s personal energy is transmitting signals about Tom in a 360-degree circle out in the universe. Some of that energy wave hits Mary. Mary, meanwhile, is emitting her own energy – some of which hits Tom.

          But these energies meet each other in a way you may not have thought of. They meet midway between Tom and Mary. Here, the energies unite (remember now, these energies are physical phenomena; they can be measured, felt) and combine to form a new energy unit we’ll call “Tomary.” It is the energy of Tom and Mary combined.

          Tom and Mary could very well call this energy The Body Between Us – for it is just that: a body of energy to which both are connected, which both are feeding the continuing energies which flow to it, and which is sending energies back to its two “sponsors” along the thread, or cord, or pipeline that always exists within the Matrix. (Indeed, this “pipeline” is the Matrix.)

          It is this experience of “Tomary” which is the truth of Tom and Mary. It is to this Holy Communion that both are drawn. For they feel, along the pipeline, the sublime joy of the Body Between, of the Joined One…”


          • Stefan

            Prayers are important, thank you for sharing. Your words and presence is acknowledged. We have to network. You must understand, my beautiful, that there are people who would like to reach out to you in a more direct way. After all, we are not dealing with same frequency we are in tune with. We all vibrate with different frequencies here, it’s all energy. You are quite high on the ladder, my dear. People can’t hear you from down below, most of them.

          • Meter

            By my watch, the hour grows very late. It is okay to step back and know peace. Be still. Hear the silence beneath the roar. You need fear nothing. It will all work out okay.

          • Stefan

            Acknowledged. Alice in Wonderland, or the curious life of Lewis Carrol. Do you know who he is? yeees, my dearest, oh yes. A very wise man who maneuvered his life without being declared mad or ridiculed. He wrote a fabulous story that very few are capable of seeing the true meaning of his story. Let’s have some fun, shall we. Alice was the answer of all his questions about life and existence of the soul. He wrote his life story as seen through the eyes of Alice. And who do you think is the Queen of Hearts? Let’s write a story about him and his novel. I need your ideas.

            And not only him. He was the ‘silent’ one just like yourself, my beautiful. You should write stories about your journey. People are starving for knowledge. They need your perspective and talents. We cannot sit in silence forever. It is what the demon wants. The do nothing mentality is not where we want to be. Expand your awareness and activate your blog. The situation is all out of control. People are in deep sleep, many are eager to know.

            My awakening was very vicious and violent but I came out alive and well, and yes, with the sound of a enormous roar. The sublime messages do not work anymore. The mentality of ‘it’s not your/my business’ to care is no longer. We are here to physically open people’s eyes to see. We’ve had enough of non-sense.

          • Meter

            I’m glad I have whet your appetite, Stefan. I’m glad you took my bait. What we see in another, we can begin to see in ourselves. I’m glad that in me you can see there is much, much more to have, be, and do. Yet I can give you nothing. Only you can do that. If you fail to go within, you go without. For I am not the source of all that you are and have, you are. My only purpose is to inspire you to see that.

            I would now invite you to share more of YOUR story, to network with people more, to share yourself. Take your own advice, it is good. For I am not the one saying I am starving. I am asking for nothing. I already know where everything comes from. I already know that need is an illusion – it has no reality for me. I know that inflow equals outflow. I live in the land of plenty. I am not the one looking to the future for salvation.

            I invite you to notice that this moment and time is perfect, just as it is, if you would only use it for its intended purpose. There is nothing you need to be, do, or have, except what already is at this moment. Shift the way you’re looking at it. End your struggle and your not-enoughness. Come home to yourself.

            Please read of the beggar who has been sitting by the side of a road for over thirty years…


          • Stefan

            My dearest, you are aware of the fact that a beast had been awaken inside me who is angry at all of you silly beings down in this stupid world. I have a very, very delicate task of myself to do in here. I come from the land of plenty, as you describe it, I’ve had it all, I’ve acknowledged it all, But I need YOU. I need YOU to see the world through your eyes and find peace within my worldly existence and roar when I need to. I shall no remain silent, but YOU possess the tools I need to find my ways through in this reality. It’s a tough work. I refuse to remain still, but you have to be my anchor and inspiration, it is the way it is and you know it. It is the reason I am here speaking out loud to you. You hear my roar, don’t you. I need to hear your silence. Thank You!

          • Meter

            Stefan, that is the first thing you have said which makes sense to me. In a worldly sense, my key to good living has been to become my own best friend, teacher, and parent. To really get to know myself well and love myself for real. This is a very hard struggle in some ways, tantamount to raising a child and then some. Get to know the subconscious (see my comment in the recent Depression article), dig deeply into yourself, but with a loving, nurturing attitude. In yourself, you will find many unfulfilled desires, lost and abandoned dreams. Become your own ally in making some of these desires come true.

            Fall in love with some of the world – people, places, and things – based on your desires, whatever they are. Yet know that falling in love will also mean falling out of love, and you will need to comfort yourself through loss and pain. There is no happiness without sorrow, so learn to love them both. I can only speak in general terms, because what you fall in love with will always be changing. Be honest, especially with yourself. As far as the world, take this and leave that – select from it what you will, and leave the rest be. Don’t try to change the world or others (yet by being your truest self you will).

            Looking for peace and love in the world isn’t fruitful. Create your own peace and love in yourself, with yourself, and eventually you will start bringing this TO the world, or little parts of it at least. There is a joy to this, and slowly you grow to love some of the world as part of yourself.

            It is a long and trying road, but I have known True Love and other wonderful dreams that I brought forth from my heart against all odds, slowly nurturing them to grow, daring to make them real. This includes NOT doing many things people tell you you must do. Eventually I got good enough at loving myself that life brought me some others to teach and love, and these were remarkable relationships. I have created a few masters, or at least helped them along their way. Yet I’ve also known a lot of pain, loneliness, and despair, somehow loving myself through it again and again and again.

            When all else fails, just be patient, enjoy some nature, some good food, and other simple pleasures to your tastes. Enjoy your NOW. Give the least part of you (your vulnerable human body and being) your greatest attention and love.

            All of this may sound obvious, perhaps, but I assure you it is not how most people live. I observe that most people have never truly tasted life, because they have never dared to love themselves, find their desires, and live them. To do so, you will have to reject most of what the world tells you, and most of the world will reject you.

            Entheogens can be great allies to growth – Peyote, LSD, mushrooms, etc. – use them wisely and intuitively. And I will mention again the writings of Neale Donald Walsch and Eckhart Tolle – these are great teachings in this quest. For going farther afield, study Carlos Castaneda and other ‘paranormal’ sources – there is great joy in believing (and becoming) the unbelievable. I have had many teachers helping me. Stay with the light side. 😉

          • Meter

            Also Stefan, you will note that I included nothing about fighting evil and bad guys. You seem to be poisoned with that teaching. Practice seeing the perfection in the world, which is a field of all possibilities. You can be in heaven while those just next to you are going through hell. This may seem unfair, but it is not – we all create our reality. The darkness and evil is there for a purpose – you will never vanquish it, and it is self-defeating to try, like revenge. Rather, simply choose what you will be.

            When you see larger events and disasters affecting the world, these are a reflection of mass consciousness – what people are collectively drawing to themselves. The dark players who bring some of these events about may seem powerful, but they are really just working on the power of many people choosing such outcomes. That is why trying to defeat the players doesn’t work. You can’t defeat choice.

            It is not for us to interfere with or control the choices of others, and only fools try. You may suggest and persuade, but the best way to do this is through your life lived – by demonstrating your choices for others. I choose to live a life of joy and miracles because this sends the message I believe in. Yet not everyone will make such a choice, and you may or may not be surprised by how many people are choosing to fall deeper into darkness. They are not victims, they are creators, yet their choices need not affect your freedom.

            It actually takes very little to be deliriously happy. If you have food in your stomach and a roof over your head (or even if you don’t), and you’re not happy, look more to what is going on inside you than outside you. Some of my happiest times were my poorest, in worldly terms. Often more stuff just makes us forget what matters.

            In other words, stop obsessing over other people and world, and focus on yourself – you go far deeper than you know. It is the greatest gift you can give.

          • Stefan

            This is important ~ “Be honest, especially with yourself. As far as the world, take this and leave that – select from it what you will, and leave the rest be. Don’t try to change the world or others (yet by being your truest self you will)”

            Being by Truest Self You Will!! And I know exactly who I am!

            Yes, yes, it all begins from one being honest with thyself!!! Know yourself. Know who you are. Know your own soul. Know your own abilities. Know your place in this world. Know your past lives. Know the reasons why you are here. Know the tools in your life and know your people around yourself. KNOW!!

            Do you know who Robin Williams is? Now I want you to watch the movie Mrs. Doubtfire and the methods Robin employed to wake up his dead asleep wife, even though he had to face with the law enforcement himself. He lived his live with no fear!He sacrificed his own life for all the people to see, and yet they ALL failed to see the reasons why he died. Yes, yes, DEPRESSION and you know better. He is still there and he is hurt.

            Family comes second! Love yourself first in order to give love to your family! You exist as a unit that is never breakable and you are invincible. It is a divine Union, the source of life and your mission is to enlighten it, protect it, grow it, cherish it, acknowledge it, your own soul grows with it!

            I cannot teach you nothing, my dearest. You are complete. You are a shining star and you know yourself, and you have a family of your own and nothing in the world matters to you or affects you in any way.

            We are having this conversation for all the people to see the light in their own darkness. We give them the light. And light is KNOWLEDGE! Knowledge is LOVE. LOVE IS LIFE. LOVE IS TO KNOW. I cannot emphasize more on this.

            Do you know who Don Juan is? He is just a guy who lived his selfish life but possessed the knowledge and tools needed for his useless existence in this life. Just like most of the very advanced yogis in this world. So what I can astral travel and import my vital body into a raven. Who cares. Carlos Castenada lived his life to write a story about it, so what. Tools, tools, tools. I read all his books. I can utilize my knowledge to do exactly just that and be a master yogi and people will worship me and they will pay me and they will stay in line to visit me. I don’t need that. I don’t choose this path of my life.

            You are a star in your realm, my dearest, your own solar system surrounded by those who you cherish and love and that is your destiny and plan for you in your own realm. People need your light and knowledge. They are the orbiting planets and they are attracted to you. Gravity! The energy wave frequencies we are all attracted to! You respond to them when we ask for your knowledge and wisdom. As above, so below! You give them food for the soul. People ask and you can hear them. See where I am leading you into. We cannot change people, but we can give KNOWLEDGE to people who ASK for it! I ASKED for KNOWLEDGE from you on behalf of all the people to see!

            But I am the law enforcement! I have to physically shake up people’s worlds to reveal themselves of who they are, I make people face their own true stupid reality, and that is the delusional world created by the growing ego which is nothing but the Queen of Hearts, nothing but a pack of cards. Acknowledged.

          • Meter

            If you’re in love with shaking people, then by all means, enjoy. It’s just another love, just as valid. Your gift.

            Yet if you don’t know joy, who can? If not now, when? If not you, who? Now is the only time it will ever be. If you are forever sacrificing and struggling and striving yourself into misery for an imaginary future, that is what you teach: misery in the now. You sound a little too manic to be joyful at what you’re doing, spreading a subtle fear rather than confident love? But only you can know the truth of it. I do appreciate your determination and energy, as will others. Just remember that the world is full of miserable repairmen endlessly fixing the unfixable, and that is the picture they send to eternity. Have joy.

          • Stefan

            I can only reach out to people starving for knowledge. The hammer must fall on the big egos. I can only ask for help. It is the people with bad intention who try to draw energy from us (energy vampires, dark entities) that we must present them a choice should they leave us alone forever or should they change the pattern in their lives. I have no intention to turn planets into stars without people’s consent to submit to me. I am more powerful than they are. They will make a choice and that is my intention exactly.

            You see, I am on the same page with you. It is my understanding of how things will be working in my own life. As above, so below. You shine like a star, but I was meant to shine like a Supernovae hence my own explosion with a roar. I create stars to shine for other people. It is what it is, I cannot change this fact. I am giving you understanding from my own perspective. My life would not be fulfilled if I don’t enlighten those around me hungry for knowledge. I read people’s minds, I sense their feelings, emotions, their own souls, I have the ability to change the course of their lives as their free will is no longer valid. They are all controlled puppets on strings. I have to find ways to utilize my gift helping people. It is my joy and happiness to reach out to people and help.

            You also have to know I’ve been a star just like yourself. I’ve known peace and tranquility. I’ve been a beggar too. But I’ve grown into a red giant in my past life. I’ve destroyed life, I’ve killed, I’ve owned power, wealth, women, I’ve possessed power to control and manipulate people to gain even more power for myself. I have a heavy karma to clean. I don’t care if I am 40 or 80 year old. I wish I was 90 so I can get closer to my real home and that is the heavens. It is the only way for me, as is important for many other people to choose their own path in life.

            There are no such things like bad or good. There are things need to be left alone and things that need to be enforced. I am aware that throught my life everything happened for a reason. I shall trust and believe only in myself. Yes, I faced the demon during my awakening and it is a frightening experience. I am not the most powerful being out there and it sensed my weakness ~ fear. Call it whatever you like, my own demons or dark entities. It was a real fight. There are people quite unaware of the spirit world but it is inhabited by all kinds of beings. And they want your energy like we need food to eat. It is what it is, are they bad? From their own perspective we are just food for them. The animal kingdom thinks all humans are bad, right? I don’t judge. Key word for you ~ karma.

          • Meter

            When an apple falls to the ground, it begins to rot. Insects and bacteria arrive and devour it. One might see this as a great tragedy. Especially if one is identified with the apple, if one calls the apple “me”, one might become angry at this evil and attempt to kill all insects, eradicate all bacteria. But of course this is just nature proceeding, returning the apple to its source, fertilizing the seeds it contains. The apple cannot be saved, yet there will be other apples. The cycle of life continues.

            Most humans contain two minds. One is their natural mind, quiet and gentle, usually unheard. The other is a foreign installation, an infection. “When the master is away, thieves break in and steal.” As humanity loses awareness, as it lies on the ground rotting, an infection arrives to devour it. This is egoic consciousness, which is destroying the world of humans. This is a dying world.

            When you look at the darkness of the cancerously growing militaries of the world, of the dark intelligence agencies beneath them, of the oligarchs controlling wealth and power dating back centuries into darkness, you see the growth of this egoic consciousness and its destructive power. Like a cancer, it will not only consume its host, it will kill itself in the process. What else could? Do you imagine a few spiritual adepts can stand down all that insanity, stop all that steel? It is too far gone, like the apple. Like other civilizations before it, this one will fall to dust, consumed.

            When spirit knocks on my door, I am always sad. Not because I don’t love spirit and all it eventually brings, but because whenever it knocks, I know there will be loss. I will be asked to release something dear to me. I will do so, because I have come to know and trust in spirit’s ways; I know they are the ways of new life. But it is still with a somewhat heavy heart that I walk to my latest death. I have never seen spirit arrive to save me, or to protect me, or to bring me anything new. That comes later, and is effortless, raindrops from the sky. Like entropy or water, spirit always flows downhill.

            How will you die? That is the only question facing humans now, and the reason so many are finding God. How will you release what you have created and allow for new life? With courage? With joy and fond memories? Or will you fight until the very end, feed yourself chemotherapy in a desperate struggle to keep the body alive at any cost to being? The choice is yours, but the hour grows very late.

            This is too ‘doom and gloom’ for most people to tell you the truth, though they are frightfully inching toward the inevitable conclusion, as the planet dies around them. But really it is not doom, for spirit’s ways are beautiful indeed.

            You, as an old power beast, are still new to the ways of spirit. You’re using your old tools on a new task, but they are an ill fit for the job. Surrender, yield. Your power is as nothing, a thin illusion protecting the remnants of your ego. Your greatest fear is admiting how powerless you are – read your comments further above, they reek of fear, contention and desperation. I sympathize. You hear the knock.

          • Meter

            The astute reader will ask the question: Why doesn’t ego (and its projections like the military), being as paranoid and hell-bent on survival as it is, see that it is its own destruction? It seems to be preparing for the future as if it has one, carving up the world, oblivious to reality. The answer is simple. Does cancer have the level of awareness to see that its growth is its own destruction? No, it only knows to grow bigger and stronger, thus killing its host and itself. The ego cannot see itself. It cannot see this problem, because it IS the problem. It’s very existence is the greatest threat it faces. This would be a selfless act of surrender to see this, not something the ego is known for. If it does become self-aware, this is awakening, which still spells its end, or transformation.

            I recently encountered an ex-Army paratrooper, lets call him “John”, who has begun to awaken. He quickly lost his job in the military industry, his wife divorced him (she could no longer stand his presence because he wouldn’t fight with her anymore), and he became homeless. On the day he found himself homeless, a man who lives near me, let’s call him “Frank” (a man with a big heart who is on the path), got an intuition to call John, not having seen him for several years. He found out John was in an alley homeless with night approaching, so went into the city and brought him home to stay with him.

            I had an intuition to pay Frank a visit, which I do occasionally, and found Frank away on business, and John there instead. We talked and I took John for a snowshoe (he later said it was the hardest workout he’s had since 10-mile hikes at dawn in the Army). So there we were on top of a mountain, this 220-pound 6-foot-something paratrooper sobbing in my arms, me holding him like a child (and I’m not that big of a person). He said I reminded him of his Native American grandfather, whom he was close to and lost when he was young. Like my grandfather, his fought in WWI and never spoke much of it – I had felt his grandfather with us all day. I took John home after our climb and prepared a large meal (this man could EAT, and enjoyed my vegan fare despite his habits). We talked some more.

            John said he has never had a conscience before, never felt anything he did. Now he has a conscience, and is plagued by memories of things he did in this and past lives. He awakens from dreams of killing people, terrified, sometimes going into seizures. Having a DUI felony, the govt has taken his weapons, so he feels vulnerable and afraid. He is protective of people, a very powerful man, yet the only way he knows to respond to danger is by killing. He is now fighting a battle for his life against alcoholism.

            Why did spirit bring him into my arms? Probably because I have enough compassion to see through his exterior to the child who is emerging, growing again. When John speaks of his past, his face gets a smile that is inhuman, probably terrifying anyone. I told him to stop telling me of the things he did, told him it is the old him, not who he is now. I see in him a great teacher someday, a Native American spirit who has returned, and a protector. But he has a long road ahead of him. He has visited me several times, observing how I live, how I react to danger, etc., and seeking perspective on the changes in him. It is so clear he is awakening, and he is a beautiful person, truly.

            Several times I had the intuition to share that story but I resisted. I was just on that snowshoe trail again, thinking again of telling this story, when a squirrel ran toward me and up the tree next to me, staying at shoulder height eagerly talking to me. Rather than run up the tree, he then tried to leap the 8 feet onto my shoulder – nearly scared the bejesus out of me. It looked for all the world like he was going for my throat, but an instant later I realized he was aiming for my shoulder. I took it as a sign to finally share this story. 🙂

            Many old power beasts, having a level of survival awareness, are being awakened by the threat on this planet. They have become a part of humanity (you are what you eat). They will thrash around trying to save themselves and humanity, not being ones to go quietly. They only know their old ways of fighting, yet now they are facing an overwhelmingly larger version of their old selves (karma indeed), and this pressure crisis can crack their ego, triggering awakening.

          • Stefan

            I like your analogy with the apple. The cycle of life continues. It is the seed within the apple that will give birth to a new tree with many new apples for the curious creatures to enjoy their taste and nourishment. It is the layers of the apple to protect the seed, it is not body that is important, but the seed. The apple body also serves the purpose to be eaten, to give nutrition for the many other life forms that exists.

            It is our DNA with the humans, we hold the secrets of life, it is all that is that we possess and must protect. It holds the secrets for the rise of new species of the human kind who will be the future inhabitants in this planet. We have seen many different human species in the past millions of years. It is a process called evolution. Who are we to question the evolution or to stop the process?

            The death of the body means nothing. The body is not designed or meant to live forever. It is the DNA that needs to be evolved, unlocked and expanded. Learning. Adapting to the ever changing world. Processing new information. It is LIFE!

            And yes, we do possess special powers, all humans do. It is the human soul that needs to grow inside, it is the lessons we must learn, it is the life we need to experience, it is in the making for the DNA to be evolved. We can’t help it but to submit to its own demands. Like my soul is screaming very loud from within. It wants out and wants to be heard. Shall I surrender to my soul? Yes! -> A one way ticket straight to the mental hospital! You see, I have to learn to act like a clown in this world, present myself like a ‘normal’ human being. I have to protect my body and do my work very delicately.

            I nearly died and wanted to end my life. I asked for prayers, and the prayers were heard. People saved my life. I’ve totally lost my ego, I’ve lost my personal identity and didn’t know what to do with my body. I couldn’t function, it was only because I had an imprinted memory of how to use things and language of communication. Just like an autistic child, it is awful.

            You see, I must maintain an ego to identify myself, I must use my mental body to project and direct my energy in accordance to the needs of my soul and intuition, and yet I have to use my tools carefully as to not harm my own body. Very simple and at the same time very hard as I can project that energy to people who may sense fear and intensity. A headache too. I am swimming in very dangerous waters here.

            I am not concerned about the rock, called Earth. She has seen many apocalypses, disasters and catastrophes, wipe outs. She is still here, isn’t she, and the Sun is still shining. No big deal. What is important, LIFE is important and we are the keepers of LIFE.

            Or else I can go to the desert and bury myself alive in the sand to experience death, nobody will care. I can return to my old self, again, nobody will care and we wouldn’t be having this conversation. Did you mean I needed to surrender and yield to my old self?

          • Meter

            > Did you mean I needed to surrender and yield to my old self?

            Of course not. I mean that your old self isn’t entirely gone; there is yet more of it to surrender. The ego adapts and hides again, it goes deep.

            I am merely suggesting that you lighten up, find some joy and humor, and not take yourself or your mission so seriously. Otherwise what will happen when you see this Earth turned over again, when it seems like evil wins?

            Even DNA (which is more like an antenna than a seed) has a deeper source. The physical world is an illusion; its source lies beyond the physical, in a place which holds memory perfectly. You may choose to protect and nurture parts of the illusion for a time, if you would see those parts last longer, but nothing is permanent or ultimately needs protection. Much DNA has seemingly been lost through change and calamity, has it not? Nature lives. Have a little faith, and allow for unending change. Build your house on the rock of the ages. That peace is not found in the world of change, but within. It lies beyond all worldly concerns.

          • Meter

            Stefan, you are welcome to use the contact form here if you would like to speak with me further

            Also, please avail yourself of Eckhart Tolle’s Power of Now teachings for going within, for opening gaps in the stream of mind and time. This is where peace is found – in those gaps.

          • Stefan

            My dearest, you must understand that I asked for help from YOU as means to see the world exactly through your own eyes. There is no coincidence that we have met here to have this discussion with you. It was not about you and me.

            We have exchanged bits of information that may or may not be useful to anybody. There is no right or wrong. I am learning from your life experience and perspective and that was exactly my intention. To be inspired by you as we should all need inspiration from one another and talk to each other. The lesson we learned is we don’t have to be lonely out there. We just need to reach out to people more and it doesn’t have to be with a roar or other means. We cannot change the world as it stands. We should not care about the future, as the future is NOW and we are the creators. The power of communication is the key for our well-being in this world.

            Give a smile to a homeless hurt person, or any person regardless, not just give him money. You will know with your intuition what a person’s motives are. Very simple things in life. Give joy and happiness to people as they will return the same at you, maybe not today or tomorrow, but some day, they will. It is all energy. Sometimes we must roar silently, and roar when need to with the silent mind. It’s one and the same.

    • D Miller

      I’d like to experience how it feels to be in the presence of another awakened being. Wouldn’t you?

  • Meter

    It’s good to read all the comments here of those who are awakening. Know that it DOES get easier. Much, much easier. Even if you could, you would never choose to go back to darkness, which is really unbearable once you’ve tasted the light. That’s not to say it will always seem easier during each step, but looking back on it all, you realize how much more blessed your life has become overall, and how much less difficult. Eventually, you even learn to have your suffering without suffering, your pain with pain, and often your losses without any pain at all. And you pick up some mighty powerful tools along the way, which are nothing short of magical and miraculous.

    Looking way back, it seems that my life has always been about the same level of difficulty, with good times and bad, because as you grow, your challenges grow as well. You could live in no-challenge, but that quickly gets boring, and you create new goals. What gets easier is that you experience yourself more as the creator, and less as the victim of your experiences. You don’t lay so much drama on everything, and so you pass through difficulties more quickly, less painfully. Thus you have more fun and freedom with life, even when alone or persecuted. You have so much energy and life to spare, you start sharing it with others for free, for the sheer joy of it.

    Don’t dwell in darkness. Don’t choose negativity. Always keep your attitude as positive as you can. Strive to find the gold in each moment of now – search for it dutifully, it is always there. This is the way to move faster into freedom. And freedom is a good goal to set, a goal which will be with you for a long, long time.

    Forgive life/God for all it has done to you. Why? Because life is the only game there is. You don’t have a choice. If you don’t forgive it, if you resent it, you only rob yourself of its gifts. You can’t beat life by resenting it, but you can make a friend of every moment, every now.

    “You see, I don’t mind what happens.” — Krishnamurti, speaking on his secret to life

  • I’m Bipolar, trying to help the world but NOONE takes me seriouse, I love music and feel through music you can help them “see” BUT they won’t listen, let alone hear what I have to say, This message gives me hope for humanity, if only for a second.

  • Susan A.

    Thank you all for providing this blog. I honestly did think something was wrong with me, especially when all my friends seemed to be distanced away from me. I said some things, home truths as I saw it but no one wanted to see or hear it. People are asleep and prefer o stay that way and if you try to show them any different you get attacked and feel bad for trying. So on feeling lost, I focused on myself and began to comprehend the loneliness. Its no one wonder the monks isolate themselves to ‘breathe’, for that’s how I felt, like I am isolated without choice, but now I choose to isolate myself on my terms.

    I agree, being ‘awaken’ can seem a burden rather than a bliss, that living in ignorance I was much happier. However, there is no turning back, so with like minded people, mediation, sending love and a prayer for all and asking for inner guidance I seem to be getting there. I still often feel I don’t know how to live in the world with all people’s issues interplaying, I don’t know how to behave, but with the guidance I remain neutral and try to understand.

    My ego gets in the way and sometimes I am fed up of all the spiritual stuff but I have no choice, I do however get glimpses of bliss from turning inward with mediation and understanding my own ego and inner being which always helps. Thank you for the tip with nature, I will certainly be trying that.

    • Stefan

      Prayers are important! There are people who love you, always. Reach out to them, they need your help. There are people in this world who need help and are desperate for help. Among your friends too. Too much focus on yourself is hurting your life. That’s why you post here, that’s why we all post here. We need the word out and network. We need confidence and motivation. Talk to people. Talk to a homeless, there are good souls out there who don’t just need money, but a live person who can share their pain with too. They are human souls, too. It’s not about friends, family, it’s about knowledge of life. we have no reason to live for ourselves anymore. We can end our lives and go home. And then what. Come back here again to go through the same painful process? The future is now. We cannot turn back the clock. It’s a hard work ahead of us. It’s tough. Be strong.

  • Patrick

    I relate to this on so many levels it’s ridiculous. I stopped befriending people commonly and genuinely since I was around 13-14. I’ve felt lonely for years now and it sucks and it hurts. It’s not that people don’t like me, they usually do, it’s just I don’t feel comfortable with them, they just seem very transparent to me. I’ve been putting this relationship with people down to me being cynical and depressed. But every once in a few whiles I meet someone and we click and it’s a sensation or some thing I suddenly remember can happen to me. Unlucky for me I’ve never gotten to continue the friendship with these very few people I’ve met and after reading this article it might just be this. It makes complete sense to me even though I feel condescending and pretentious just relating to this and even posting this comment haha.

    Anyway thanks for this, what I can only call an idea, because I’m obviously not going to immediately take this to be true. But I will definitely keep my eyes more open with this idea in mind because it resonates with me so much I’m just hoping it’s true (if it even comes down to validity at all).

  • Candice

    I feel like I have had a an awakening this past summer. I experienced the most beautiful sensations of love, joy, forgiveness, peace, and so much more. I felt like I was getting to a point where I was truly connecting with my true self. It was absolutely beautiful.

    During that process, I connected with my integrity, I was leading a life with courage, learning to love myself,confidence, wanting to spread kindness, and eventually it led me to have to do a lot of letting go. Letting go of the person who validated all these experiences and truly provided me with balance.

    Since the experience, and letting go of a 9 year relationship, i fee groundless and less connected with my true self. I believe that I am traveling with awareness, as I am able to see that I am not as connected, but my ego is out with a vengeance and I feel like my vibrations are at a lower level. I am trying to practice loving-kindness with my self and practice patience. but the strange thing is that i felt more connected with myself when i did feel like nobody understood me as much.i did feel like i could not communicate with as many people, and many people in my life did not understand what i was talking about half the time. they did not believe it to be authentic when in truth, it was the most authentic i have ever felt.

    have any of you ever experienced this? you can sometimes feel like you’re swinging from one side to another. i just want o accept all of me and know that i am still climbing the ladder even when it feels like i am not in the best of places. i know that these experiences are just as important. I know that they are valuable lessons, but these times can be tough. especially when you feel as though you share some of these feelings with people who would understand or whom you trust. I know the source is within, but it would be nice to be able to hear from people who might feel as though they have been less aligned at times in their life, after having an awakening.

    I thank you all so much for your time to read this and wish you all love the love, peace, joy, and happiness in this coming new year.

    • Meter

      There is nothing unusual about all you describe. Evolution is not a straight line. There are many cycles, and just when you reach the mountaintop, you dive back into the valley and begin raising yet another part of you. When you have all of you out of that valley, you rise as a whole to the next higher valley, and begin rising yet higher.

      The key is to be fully present in the now, wherever and however you find yourself.

      If you and others have not gotten to know the author Eckhart Tolle, and his books The Power Of NOW and A New Earth, he has much to share with you. He talks about how to make the most of the now, and where we fit into a rising new consciousness on Earth.

      Sometimes Eckhart doesn’t reflect the challenges of a slower awakening, as he experienced it as a sudden change, but reading a few pages of his words each day may bring much light into your moments.


  • Seleste

    My awakening has come to two phases. The first began during the 2008 financial meltdown. I started looking for answers beyond the MSM versions of what occurred and why. What I found was astounding, like the overwhelmingly documented financial fraud, controlled media, controlled governmental structure etc.. I naively thought everyone in the country would come unglued as the information was coming out. I also remember sharing with my family that ALL the US Presidents are related, and the crazy implications of that. There eyes just glazed over. I tried and tried to get through to them to the point of borderline damaging my marriage. My husband and I finally agreed to disagree and not ever talk about “it”. He has since had a bit of his own awakening that brought us back together to a degree.

    In 2011 I experienced another level of awakening/understanding, this time in the spiritual area of my life. This new experience has, among many, many other things, finally smoothed out the anger/frustration caused from looking behind the curtain. Now I feel that I don’t have to wake others up and “fight” evil. I have come to believe there is a huge and life changing difference between resisting evil and “renouncing” evil. In my view, resisting (trying to fight) evil gives the evil forces more power. TPTB love when we expend our precious energies fighting them or each other. I just don’t buy into much, if any, truth of the current issues of our day. I “renounce” it (ignore it) to focus only on what is good and noble in my life and the lives of others. I don’t watch TV, don’t vote, don’t listen to popular music, don’t read headlines, don’t fear them, don’t try and keep up with trends, or the Jones. Of course, cracks occur in my carefully designed more peaceful life, i.e. visiting relative at Christmas, lol. Jeeze, that can blow a hole in anyone’s hard fought zen. Happy New Year Y’all.

  • Michael

    I sometimes wonder if ignorance is bliss. Upon my awakening, I did what most of us do when we learn something new and exciting. I ran to my family and told them or tired to tell them about the new things that I have discovered. How virtually everything we’ve been taught is a lie and even gave some great examples. You know where that got me? It landed me in the hot-seat with my family and friends. After loosing relationships with most of my family and friends and going through sort of a morning period, I came to the conclusion that I should keep my mouth shut about my beliefs and truths. Why? It is not my responsibility to awaken anyone. Doing so infringes upon their free will. They will awaken when they are ready to awaken.

    • Stefan

      You must be aware of the fact that these people are controlled entities and the ‘free will’ rule cannot apply to them anymore. You have to be careful who you speak to as you do not endanger your life. It is a good thing you’ve lost your ‘friends’. They didn’t care about you in first place. Big deal. You did good. They have made their own decision. You presented them a choice, can’t you see? If they wanted to follow you up on your journey, they would have signed up! You never know what people want and don’t keep your mouth shut! You have to SHOW them the way, they have to WALK THE WALK! If they refuse to take on the journey, so be it! Hands clean and move on, but don’t go silent, my friend, speak out the truth! People have to walk the walk, if they are interested, they will listen! Always

  • Ric the vic

    “If you know God, you have a duty to teach to others what you know”
    Whilst I dont claim to know God, I still believe I have a duty to teach others what I know. In my own experience of awakening (on ongoing process IMHO) I have dragged people kicking and screaming, nutured and encouraged, debated and explained all to varying degrees of success. Now I just focus on the question, I leave the answer to those I communicate with. With many years of practice I believe this is the most successful method for me. I also have lots of fun with it and never feel lonely. Try it and never give up on teaching what you know.

  • maybeperfect

    Cindy, pretty much since the original exodus (you know, from the garden,) the paradigm comprising mankind’s awareness has seemed to be based on the Idea that we (collectively and individually) are somehow doomed to be weak, failed, evil beings, and as much as the tendency is to self-identify this way, I’ve been searching in my “God can’t be doing/being this” bucket and I can’t seem to come up with anything whatsoever, In fact, I am wondering if any such bucket could ever exist, since it has not, to my knowledge, ever been proven that what we seem to think of as our lives, could not really be God, living all of His apparently infinitely diverse lives as He surfs the tides of time through the possibly limitless expanses of eternity. Everything we seem to believe that we have capacity for consciousness of may be conditional to such an immense extent upon whether or not we’re really, in some way God, or at least somehow a manifestation of his will, whether we seem to be oblivious of the concept or not.
    Which of us are able to contend with God? Or presume to know anything whatsoever about Him? The imponderable Majesty and unsearchable magnificence of every possible aspect of every conceivable thought or perception of the existence we seem to sense, for me is way more than sufficient impetus for humility and most of all abject gratitude, for seeming to have been included as a fingernail, nay a cell, no, not even an atomic particle of this infinitely profound whateveritis, and yet,…How can we dream of being any kind of arbiter of relative significances within this creation, where are our credentials? And how could we pay for our lives, we got no money. Got a receipt?
    So the intervening period since the garden, for whatever reason seems to have been lived in such a consciousness. Perhaps as we come to honestly admit within ourselves that God’s probably the only one that knows anything for sure, and might not want to know, for all we know, and acknowledge the possibility that God might really be doing/being everything, God may be able to make us to know that a different paradigm may be possible, where our consciousness is more like: Since I may be co-fulfilling God’s destiny, or even Be God in some way, by effect, if nothing else, how can the way I am enhance God’s life in the face of eternity, and somehow encourage Him if I can to continue to live, unless he must die, or be leaning towards non-existence. Or is there even somehow existence in that? When we admit that we might not know whatever we seemed to think that we did, we may well find that our presence as heirs to the garden is requested.
    Thank You

    • Casey

      this brotha made no sense

  • samvado

    There is no such thing as an awakened mind.

    • Adam Evenson

      Is there anything such as anything? It’s so easy to say something is non-existent, but so hard to prove… Let us just say that none of us exist and be done with it, shall we? Since nothing exists, therefore, don’t try to come back on this as I won’t be here to read it. 😉

      • Meter

        > Is there anything such as anything?

        lol nice.

        Actually what he may be saying is that the mind doesn’t awaken, one merely moves awareness beyond the mind. So awakening is not a mental process. Mind is only a tiny aspect of who we are (even though it is so dominant in the current species) .

        In the sense of the human egoic mind, I agree with this. Yet mind has three levels, subconscious, conscious, and superconscious. The superconscious is indeed awake, is aware of soul (that is its purpose). and is what blends or melts us into the larger super soul, or ‘God’. So from this perspective, moving one’s consciousness, or conscious mind, or attention, to the superconscious level, does create an awakened mind.

        Or one might say that awakening and awareness is reflected in the mind.

        • samvado

          couldnt have said it better ….

    • Stefan

      Yes, you are correct on your assessment, samvado, It is the awakened soul from within that speaks out the truth, and not the delusional mind of ours full of delightful wishful thinking and distorted perspective of life full of lies and deceit.

      • samvado

        Awareness and soul are not the same. Soul is a mind-construct, a word, a symbol we use to descibe something the mind is not really made to describe or define.
        Anything outside the mind’s territory can only usefully be described in metaphors.
        Once you really wake up (not the thing described in this article which refers to “waking up from the stupor of society”) – if you physically survive, which is unlikely, you will know that nothing exists but awareness. All else is a reflection.

  • First off I agree it can be a lonely place–but this does help in MEDITATION (when you live alone). And if I was in a romantic relationship, it would very likely pull me away from this higher understanding, by being WRAPPED-UP in the DRAMA of a romantic relationship.
    However, to be honest I must say that I envy by brother who believes GOD has got it covered and he DOESN’T have to do anything.
    He’s never messed with by the TPTB. SO HE HAS A GOOD JOB, LOT’S OF MONEY TO HAVE FUN TRIPS, nobody is TRYING TO KILL HIM, life is basically EASY STREET. He doesn’t carry the weight of the world on his shoulder’s like I do.
    I actually used to be Very Happy-Go Lucky, BEFORE I awoke. Now that I know our peril and how SLOW people are getting it, it causes me stress. I realize we don’t have much time to save our bio-sphere.
    So happy go-lucky is hard for me now. Yet I’m supposed to have a positive energy, Seems rather “CRAZY” to me.
    So is my brother right?

    • Meter

      There is a divine plan, and it’s fine to take faith in this especially when things seem out of your hands, yet we all play our active, creative parts in it as well. We are God, Godding, creating the life we live. This does not need to be a struggle. In fact in one sense, nothing can be easier than being part of God’s plan. It is the end of struggle.

      When it comes to comparing yourself to others, don’t. It’s always tempting but never valuable. If you really find someone whose life you admire, then explore those possibilities in yourself. You may create what you wish. Yet most times when I envy another, if you ask me if I would want their life, I say no way! In fact as hard as its been at times, I wouldn’t trade my life with anyone you could name, honestly. I did it MY way, just like the song says.

      Don’t worry, everyone has their challenges in life, even your brother, even if you can’t always see them. People whose life seems easy may be resting, may be in a different part of the cycle than you. Sometimes when life looks it most bleak, it is about to break through into wonderful. And sometimes when it seems blissful, from the soul’s perspective, the least growth is occuring; they are sleepwalking.

      People who have chosen to raise a family or become a couple often give much of their spark away, to one of their children or their partner. It will seem like there isn’t much growth or change in their life, and like it just is working on automatic. You can see the bliss and might envy it. This is a gift, but they too will one day begin growing again, facing new challenges of their own. Don’t worry, life doesn’t forget anyone with its challenges. 🙂

      “Existence demands growth.” — Don Juan Matis (from Carlos Castaneda)

    • Stefan

      Meditation helps but networking with people is more important. You need people’s energy to accomplish your work. We are lonely because nobody can hear us. We live in a world of surrogates. And what’s the thing with sex in the surrogate world? That we just electrocute ourselves in order to have an orgasm? No. We need people to interact with to acquire knowledge and stay grounded. I believe sex is needed for us just for the purpose to stay grounded and do our work. I have to question mark my own statement because, as you mentioned, we don’t need the drama in a romantic relationship, but we need sex. So. It is not about ‘having fun out there to get drunk and talk BS’ for us anymore. Right. We do have to deal with the sexual energy and how to channel it into a spiritual energy via MEDITATION is a big challenge for us we have to deal with. I hope this clears your concerns. You have a very prominent, strong sexual energy.

  • you are a darling 🙂
    a precious treasure ..
    a fantastic soul..
    a love quality
    truth fully experienced..
    like me.. like many of us..
    in the new ”water dimension”

    love to you

    • Davis

      thank you

  • Meter

    It’s important to acknowledge that some aspects of a spiritual path involve solitude, sometimes for years at a time. Some things are just between you and God (or Life if you prefer that word). Your soul will drive you there.

    Your ego may not like this at all. It can go into poor-me mode, pitying itself, even threatening to kill the organism (suicide). Being alone can trigger all kinds of ego responses to watch out for. For example, the ego will convince itself it’s the only one who is alone, which of course isn’t true, and that other people are having fun while it is suffering terrible aloneness. Yet at the same time, you won’t have much will to be social or engage outer life – it’s just not there.

    If you do find yourself in this place, note that spending time in nature is a good substitute for people energy. Sometimes you have to give yourself a kick out the door, but when you return, even the ego will have to admit that being among the trees and sky somehow did you a world of good. If you can’t be alone in nature, gaze at the sky, or focus attention on your breath (your body is part of nature).

    Many claim this is the age of mass awakening, which is perhaps true, and you see a lot of commentary like “we are awakening”. Yet awakening is not a group-think effort. While it can be socially wonderful to be among like-minded people at times and share your experiences, at other times you will be alone, and this is part of the process. It’s a bit like rigorous exercise – it can be a painful struggle at times, but it creates growth and health, and you begin to crave it. You are finding yourself. It doesn’t last forever, it tends to cycle, so be patient.

    • Lou

      I can’t stop crying after reading this. Thank you.

  • Victor Gagnon

    Great article as usual. Thank You.

  • AffinitNetNews

    I learned this the hard way. I was fired from CBS Nightly News, for trying to awaken people within the network to all the lies, fraud and propaganda regarding the Iraq War, and much more.

    I thought naively back in the early 90’s, that If I could so plainly see what I thought was so obvious, they could too. Wow, was I in for an ugly shock.

    People love their delusions and false-matrix. Instead of being listened to, I was attacked, scorned and ultimately fired for daring to speak truth to corrupt power.

    People that I thought were awake in media that I worked with, turned on me like savage wolves.

    Facts mean absolutely nothing, I mean n-o-t-h-i-n-g to these sheep! You can bury them with documents, photos, video and even wise sages from afar.

    Complete waste of time and effort.

    I attempted largely in vain to give seminars about Admiralty Law UCC, International Banking, all my experiences in film, TV and high-level projects within the IMF, World Bank, and diamond industry, that has awakened me over 30 years to the NWO, and usually, 3 people would show-up, and one was always my dear mother in support of my efforts.

    I spend most of my time alone now. I agree, LEAVE THEM THE HELL ALONE. Even still with as much that has been exposed, most people would rather live in a state of denial, slumber and apathy. They don’t want to take responsibility for their own lives, or step-out of the cage.

    I know most of you reading this that have tried to ‘awaken’ family members, as I have will agree, that they can be the very worst. I have family members that have an awareness level of an empty parking lot.

    But ‘they’ oh no, ‘they’ are experts don’t you know, and ‘you’ oh no, ‘you’ are a delusional ‘conspiracy tin-foiler’ and possibly a ‘radical extremist’ or worse yet, a ‘home-grown terrorist’ for daring to question their belief system, media, criminal government etc.

    These will be the very same people when it all finally collapses will scream from the rooftops, “Why the hell didn’t someone tell me this was going to happen” ?!!!

    To all of you out there that dare to ‘awaken’ from the false-matrix, I feel your frustration and pain. But, as hard as it can sometimes be, I’d rather be awake and aware any day.

    • Daniel

      Great comment! Love it. Totally agree…

    • Charlie

      Very well said. I gave up trying to awaken a peoples heading to zombieville.

      We are going in another direction, being drawn by a higher force which will soon free us.

    • Meter

      I’m sure you’ve been vindicated in at least some of their eyes – the 90s were a different time. Yet very many are still deeply snoring – I’m always astounded by how truly ignorant people remain. Human denial is simply amazing.

      > Facts mean absolutely nothing, I mean n-o-t-h-i-n-g to these sheep!

      So true – beliefs are powerful, even in this pseudo-scientific culture. The problem with beliefs that limit awareness is that limited awareness is not a survival trait.

      I often ask life to bring me information and experiences now, and steps I can take now, that will make my journey less arduous later. This has proved to be very effective, sending my future self little gifts, providing I remain open to what I’m being shown and act on it.

    • et Setera

      I think you are an inspiration. You tackled part of the MSM, that great agent of deception, head-on – and at great personal cost. Maybe you are up too close to what you did, to see it – but you and others like you, are steadily dismantling the wall around us, brick by brick. My heartfelt thanks, that you cared so much!

    • Davis

      thank you my soul

    • Stefan

      ooh yes, well, I am working on people and almost quit my job because of that. But I have to assure you that I only work on people who have some form of spiritual awareness and need answers for their questions. We are awakened because people asked for us to be here. We are Angels who made the conscious decision to descend down from the heavens to help people wake up and face their own harsh reality. We are grown and mature souls but we cannot go silent anymore. We are here specifically to awake people in a subtle way. The big ego must be crushed the hard way and if they (the egos) choose to remain asleep, so be it, if they attack us back, it is because we’ve hurt their delusional ego they are so attached to, you shook them the whole world. Good! Somebody had to do it! Big deal. ~ in your case, my dearest friend, you have to take care of your own body and forget about the stupid job you’ve been doing ~

      In retrospect, you might have done a good deed as some people will be remembering that moment and will be asking questions themselves what is a lie and what is a truth in this world. It takes time. It takes patience. The people who really love you, they will never abandon you, they will always love you, even your closest friends. Everything happens for a reason, I bow down my head to you for your brave effort to kick these people’s lazy asses. The work must be done.

      And we are here for exactly the same reason. It is to network and expand our own area of knowledge, tools and tactics how to negotiate with this stupid crazy world we had created for ourselves. How to deal with the physical realm and stay alive. Networking is a vital point of our existence and we must stay together, all of us as one!

      A self-less person will never strike back at you. There is no reason such person needs to be awaken forcefully or in any subtle way. These people are rare and yet at the same time spiritually grounded. We have to give them knowledge first because sooner rather than later they will be awakened naturally. We have to network with these people too. They are the lost children like we were before.

      No remorse for the big egos. The hammer must fall on them hard or we’ll be wasting our time.

  • Bad-Clown

    How can peoples with MORE information be MORE lonely, that’s what I wanna knows! If yous think “they is lookin’ at me strangely”, maybe yous can’t can’t handles what the Great Turtle has given ya.

    Ego-isolation means yer gate’s stuck, and the Great Turtle may stops helpin’ ya!

    Share what ya knows, that what I says! Yous can hit yer family & friends with a 20-ounze hammer between the eyes to helps ’em awaken — just like ‘dem born-agains; but yous’ll likely be spendin’ yer quality-time with ‘dem you loves in the emergency-room at the hospital.

    Or, yous can be more gentle ‘n confident, and takes yer new responsibilities seriously. It’s really up to you…

  • xyzc

    For really steppin’ out of the Matrix, research Corrado Malanga.

  • Jim

    This was nicely written and speaks very kindly of the ones we scare and/or anger by ‘waking up’
    – recently mentioned in my blog, “… The intense positive outlook I attempted to maintain caused concern amongst friends and family. I received lots of advice and learned years later, many made decisions behind my back based upon their assumption that I was a few fries short of a happy meal. …”

    I try to be polite too but wow, in hindsight I can attest, letting them sleep and keeping much of the ‘new’ to yourself could be wise in some cases.

  • Meter

    > The best way to reach them is over time. Be gentle and incremental in your approach.

    I agree, having tried many approaches. Consciousness-raising cannot be rushed. There are ETs and other beings who work to raise the consciousness of humans, and they do so over huge spans of time, requiring unimaginable patience.

    As I like to say, “Cast a few seeds and move on.” On occasion, one sees an opportunity where one may give a jolt, if you can take the heat of the reply. Many are grumpy when their sleep is disturbed.

    Yet one aspect of awareness is seeing that this civilization is headed into destruction soon. This can create desperation in people trying to awaken others. Yet despite their panic, I don’t think their panicked efforts speed things up much. Life itself, experience, is a profound teacher. Sometimes silence speaks volumes.

    As for solitude, it has its purpose and its joy.

    • Josie Yerk

      Thank you for this message, I really needed to hear it. I was feeling extremely lonely here. I am the only one in my whole community and family. I wish I could find my tribe if only to speak with others like me for a little bit.

      • Meter

        There is a time to be alone, but there are also times to reach out. About ten years ago I got the intuition it was time for me to reach out, and I decided to attend some of the spiritual conferences, UFO conferences, etc., where authors and healers speak, and people congregate.

        It was a stretch for me, but it proved to be very valuable. It’s simply amazing to be in a room full of people who are also on the path, each in their own way – totally different than being with the average crowd. Just the energy difference is tangible.

        I ended up traveling around the world with some of the authors, studying ancient sites, and getting to know them personally (even though just months earlier I wouldn’t have guessed this would even be financially possible for me, but the universe had other plans).

        It’s good to get the ball rolling at times, even if you doubt it can go anywhere. And there are many wonderful people in the world. Reach for them, sometimes.

        Being alone is practice at loving yourself, the toughest relationship of all, yet also the most profitable. Invest in yourself, heal and grow.

        • ed

          Well said.

      • Anonymous

        welcome to my club.

      • bob

        im with you there. u can email me if u like?

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